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我很伤心...为什么....??.....是我的问题吗...?怎麽...将了呢....??是我知道太多东西了吗....我真的不想再知道任何的东西了.....没想到cch他会说：对于辛...我无话可说...因为连我都搞不懂它是不是爱你还是把你看成他的私有品...我还以为他会说辛的好话...结果他说的是何...我倒是奇怪...他说他认为爱一个人是不会让对方不快乐得.....之后几天呢？...令我耿耿于怀的事...连我干姐都在内.......我到底怎么办？？？？？.....辛他说.....我干姐一路以来都是想我跟辛一起？...辛说我姐告诉他将多东西是因为他知道总有一天我和他会一起？他说我姐也说我和他是最完美得...我要相信辛说的吗？我姐有将说过吗？...可是他说他答应我姐不告诉任何人包括我...为何现在又告诉我?也叫我别问我姐...我伤心什麽？...因为...如果是真的话...为何...为何我姐不和我讲？他还说我姐曾讲过何...说他不好？还叫我小心何，小心被骗，如果我怎样,我姐叫他不会放过何...所以她要辛保护我...他说连我姐都说何不好...可是我不能只听他讲喔...可是他说我跟你讲你不要去问你姐...为什么不能问？他说他会完蛋...他还说我姐有天会跟我说不过不知几时...辛还说你姐讲给你听，不如你给我机会....他还说我借讲我傻为了何就不给他机会？他说我借不想我和他分开不能在一起...我真的好想问我姐是否与他说过这种话？？？我姐真的有讲过>>??他还说其实我姐还蛮关心我的是我不知...还说我姐讲他是24小时好男人...他问我感动吗我姐讲的....我听到不是感不感动...是悲伤....为何我姐讲的....她不和我说呢...如果我怎样他说我姐会不放过他...时怎麽一回事？？？？？？？？？？？？
我很@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@....只好放在心理....却不能只是不是真的？>.<.....可是我好害怕...给我知道的时候...都是真的........我还想什麽都没听过.........知道又不能问....问了又不知会怎样???.........我现在呀怎样？
怎么办？辛说又说你听你姐的话，你姐叫你给机会我，你不给......我是会帮她做东西如果她要不过这种事不是做东西将.......

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他们说没东西了....照跳......都不只...........随便.........顺其自然好了......我不觉得将很好玩.............把这种东西来玩................还没开始都将....不知开始跳时....又有什么东西问题.........搞到我....没完心情想舞..........希望没有东西...令到我觉得太累太累不想跳...............了............我现在已经很累了..........有没有顾过我感受........一个两个将找我讲那种东西...........会很头痛........都说我要讲得都讲了...................很无奈........................................................................

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到底是怎麽了...？...讲了又不是...不讲又不行...又是我错？...做麽把公事和私事捞在一起讲？...跳舞是一件事....哪能参其他东西讲的...他应该和ii讲...搞到ii说他也不跳舞...就两个不跳....想把pbsm东西搞到乱乱吗....将我会觉得害死我吧....做东西就做东西...怎么能把感情事一起讲....我就打电话跟H讲...真抱歉...跳舞的事...原本是没问题的....我好像很没有用将的....很无能...我只是觉得一件小事把它闹到这么多人知道...连Pbsm的.........很不好吧....我们的事就私人事就私地下讲...做麽..弄到...其他人....一个两个....都来找我...是全世界得人...都觉得我错将.....干嘛用我干姐dat我....是....如果她叫我做东西...我尽量...可是，我不觉得她会将讲的....肯定有什么东西的............是他自己讲的吧.....

超无奈......想必....我名誉已经没了.....很mao lik.....rain rain rain.............................

我好笨喔

我真的吨到....cry again warr....so sot de larrr....cry cry cry...no use de.....me gt a bit heart pain......huik.......i tink after few times will nth de......hup he olso ......gambateh......

害怕喜欢上人？

也不晓得何时....开始觉得....喜欢上一个人....或对一个人心跳加速....这是说喜欢人了？...会觉得害怕？因为怕被伤害？...也就像那首歌一样“只怕我自己会爱上你 不该让自己靠得太近 把我什么都留给你 爱你也许要很大的勇气 wuh ohoh yeah......................只怕我自己会爱上你~~ 不该让自己靠得太近....................爱上你我情非得已.........”

元宵节前夕

今天样子像喝追醉酒将的...星期日和昨天都on duty at kompleks....黑完咯....哎呀呀....累啊.....更何况有考试呢....昨晚还喝sandy咧....脸更红....呵呵....我样子好傻哦.....昨晚....星期二我都是go cikgu ngan thr t.t 的....[[也实在的....在我也不知情况下.....{{也来...#.#"".....不知啊...那时我都累垮了...理得这么多.....今天.....晚上...真的那么巧....那...........................问问题都一样的................."""""

今天

今天，我都不知说什么好..............................我突然很沮丧..........也不知做什么.....提不起劲来将的.....或许是下雨特别是想睡觉...感觉很累...回到家已经是晚上了.....哎哎...msg来咯.....难道我真的讲话有问题的吗...?我觉得我很没力.....或许我真的有问题吧....收到ii的msg就聊聊....我都知他要聊什么的了.....叫我给机会]]....我很压迫吖.....已经不想再回任何信息.....]]那边.....已经说了不要谈恋爱.....再将问我下去...我怕我真的疯掉.....在同一时间,""问我东西.....我觉得很奇怪.....难道像别人说得那样.....他是个没什么坦白的人....?...曾经也有东西骗过我...?...是个比较好玩的人...?嗯.....我想我该好好地想......................................................当然....大部分的女孩子都是要有这个必要得.....不过..............我突然觉得我.....比较害怕会喜欢上人了.......喜欢人....如果是我，我会单纯的喜欢我所喜欢的.....不一定要拥有得到吧...?....人各有志吧....活得开心快乐才重要吧.....?...我还嘚在我学习及功课方面多加点油了!!!!!...加把劲呢!!!...Yaerrrarrrrr......

情人节

今天就还是下雨天咯...到学校就去给红包我干姐咯...她啊...怪怪的...看到我笑...我问做麽...她说等下你就知道的...奇怪...虽然我表情上是很好奇...实际上我知道.....她应该是说boy2吧...其实,原本我是不知道的...就因为昨天晚上....一切我都知道了.....因为在早上没什么时间...所以boy2就办不到他要向我办的东西...吖....在下午快...training finish i'm at b.kesihatan thr...he go in ...thn i tink he wan gv me someting de l0rr...so he kai kpui say gv me ting bt i'm say if expensive me dun wan l0rr...aikzz...tat time me du dun kwn wan accept o nt l0rr...papa lerr...bt he say if me din accept dai biao ju jue him...accept you cnt din accept you cnt...me jz dun wan make he unhappy ...我就谢他的礼物...我说如果我看到很贵重我给回你的...其实原本算是他给我的一个惊喜吧...不过，我已经知道了的...但是我还是像什么都不知将...在早上时,回到课室...朋友说是S给的...是个盒子...一看里面全部白白的纸...我想应该都是信来的吧.....果然没猜错....有整十八封信...一封一封看.....有些字.....重复又重复了.....真....而且.....还用歌词来写.....想必他也太多甜言蜜语了吧.....我朋友不小心看到都说它可以去参加比赛了.....写的东西有些都是他得道理...我也不想多说...只知道公说公有理，婆说婆有理.....他竟然会说这样的情况很废...我倒是觉得很恐怖.....我超挣扎.....真的不想hii & muishen帮我烦...我的东西....是啦...我知道他们是站S那边的...可是....帮过不就算吧...如果很常问我之类的东西...又想过我到底想怎样的吗.....?我的感受如何...?...反过来，我会很烦...我已经跟他说了清楚...要读书啊...他清楚知道的啊...如果再将...也不就是逼我吗...？口口声声说我幸福就好了，不会逼我....可是现在还不是一直在追问我同样的问题吗？...答也都答道不答了丫......

情人节前一天

也就是二月十三日，今天是Mesyuarat Agung 4 k0kum de.....aikzz...luan j0rr....so nt tiam....:-(...gv seni0r.....hear hear advise ....but i trust next time will be more better de...GAmbt@teh... another way round...烦啊.....明天是情人节...hii告诉我...tat boy2 gt but ting 2 gv me 4 valentine de present ....me du dunno wan accepy o nt larr...accept you cnt dun accept you cnt....aikzz...y wan tel me lerr...u all dun tel me i mer dunno l0rr..i dunno mer shun qi zi ran l0rr..than tat C tel me again tat boy2 gt buy wat 2 me n wat wat wat.......& talk again himself & me...like fa pi qi wit me ...du say liao i dun wan pak tuo l0kkk....if u dun wan b frenzz du nvm ....i kwn de...haizz sai...i & hii gt a yue ding de tis time olso same as last time din tel ppl tat wat he was tel me oledi de...so me jz thx him 4 telling ....thn muishen olso gt 5 me ...aiy0rr guo ran r liang gong po...same time 5 me 4 same ting...我很抱歉的.....自己的事...干嘛好像牵累到别人替我烦恼将...难道我真的要多咩...tiong hua nt so big jerr...aikzz.....y will like tat de....aduiduidui....2mrw afternun du gt training timm....whole day at sch ....hw cum me can d0ng ben xi pao dao lerr...i olso dunno y...y th3y gt many ting 2 tel me...n de ting i du dunno y is si shi....i ning yuan dun wan kwn anyting else...mayb tat will more better rite..?....*-*''

Gamble win j0rr ~ ~

2day go pang s t de hum 4 bai nian l0rr.....she live beside my kei jie thr de olso at fajar geh...then tink dao my kei jie de m00d nt so good ...aikzz...me du sms her l0rr..kwn her du nt so wan reply de ...du nth ...jz can hope her have a good m00d jek..c0z du new year l0rr...then du wait 4 eat l0rr..coz du nt yet eat breakfast o...thn gt lion dance de tat lion dance du gei cute ha...c0z they play football 0o...keke....after tat...me jiu bek hum l0rr...bek hum a few mins i call my mum ...mym mummy say go bobok their beside my hum tat...o0...thn mer go l0rr...go thr gamble 21dian de....thn play dog dog..hehe...me win j0rr ....wim almost rm14 like tat larr...hehe....happy geh....thn at thr eat mai dinner du bek hum l0rr...then du 0n9 2 watch de "ying ye 3 jia 1"...got ming dao & chen qiao en de o0...kiki....^^....bt gt me du gt a bit stomach pain pain de....aikz..z..z...

Today...

Today....can go out bai nian liao l0rr...^.^...go 2 wai po hum bai nian..then du so boring coz no 1 play de...then wait l0rr..wait till afternun...yeah...go 2 popo hum...thr gt gamble o0...play crab prawn de...hehe...then i go 2 have a l00k wat my mum & my gugu th3m play..th3y play hong dian o0...i mer sit my mum place n help my mum play l0rr..hw kwn i baru sit jer...du win j0rr l0rr..haha...happy l0rr...win 3 times m0re like tat...kiki...at thr until night o...at thr eat dinner de...eat wan dinner ...hear dao outside gt lion dance tat is beside my popo hum de..mer gt many kid wan go...& olso my zizi...thn mer 4l0w go c c l0rr...after tat...my lei jie call me w0rr..she ask me gt go zh0ng de hum o nt o...i du say i dun go de l0rr..c0z at my popo hum j0rr...thn she say nvm l0rr...th3n bek dao hum...can bath l0rr...so c0mfortable...hw kwn zh0ng sms tel me wan me advice my kei jie dun drink 2 much de red wine ....her face become red j0rr geh...i du gt bit bit w0rry l0rr...at zh0ng hum mabuk can larr..if at outside du dangerous l0rr...i mer sms her tel her l0rr...n ask ask l0rr..i tink nt she unhapy gua..mayb she 2 happy lerr...^?^...suddenly...my hp gt call...eekk....i c de hp...vincent fu(hum)...call me w0rr...dun kwn wat ting...mer hear l0rr...he so hapi de say happy chinise new year...thn i mer say happy chinese new year 2 l0rr...v king xia king xia new year...gv he zao dao xia...call me jz say ...but nvm larr..he say frenzz ma...mer zu he xia l0rr..suddenly again no current warrr...aiky0rr...wat's a natural city...but after a while gt j0rr...luckily not long time l0rr..if long time du hot si me l0rr..& nt sy0k larr...new year du no current warr...tat's all..........

Chinese New Year ~

2day is nian chu yi ...aikzzz...my mum wan at hum....so boring ....jz my bro th3m out....my dad slpzzz...my sao sao de little baby slpzz...my mum although l00k like wacth tv bt olso slpzzz...all slpzzz...sienzzzz....me ...nth 2 do....jz write de blog...play de comp....i tink nt me play comp is de comp play me....nyek saizzz....cant go out take ang pao......wan go frenzz hum but some far....n very fan wan go many de ppl hum..if nt go...du so boring.....*>*"

Realize......

领悟到.....人长大了...真的需要改变了....改变的是那些事物还是自己呢..?长大后...真的需要自己去面对...?不要太依赖别人.....也发觉像是越来越没得靠......越来越多独自的是时间了...长大了....什麽事都会发生...？有许多不能够解决及处理的事情...?有许多无理头的东西...有许多有的没得的东东...这些有的没得....都将会发生....而这些都是让我们成长的...........

Thinking f0r it ~ ~ ~

Thinking f0r......isn't like o love a people ...not juz wan hope tat people who happy is ok ma..?...y make me will fe3l stress & sad...so tat...i choose......talk 2 them....i now temporarily didn't nid 2 fall in love....in year of 15 0 16 ...although many people start b couple o what else....not mean me also wan 4l0w lik tat isnt?...i'm nt say couple is wrong ...but juz me didn'n wan anything happen..tat will make all of us unhappy ...& i also realize tat...have ppl love...although is swe3t n xin fu but i tink i rather choose 2 love a people beter....than it....tat's my mind only....dunn0 hw about other tink about>?...

A few day of s@dly

Y i say sad...actually i think all of us also will got unhappy tings de...me feel no m0od n mad ...is tat love very very important?i know tat important in our daily life but at less now is my study time...is my gold time 2 learn ...i dun wan got anything 2 stress...tis year is my PMR time j0rr...so temporarily i think i will dun wan 2 pak tuo de l0rr.....^~^"...i see some of the couple will so sweet but some of them quarrel & sad 4 it.....i dun wan like tat ...it will causes my mood , my s2dy...even how i juz wan 2 b happy everyday...^^...no more any more more ting 2 suffer ...